In Which They Ponder the Unknown…

The other day, Chris and I had a discussion about The Future.  In fact, it was because we had just made a very important decision about Our Future that this discussion came about:  we rescheduled our flight for 18th October.  So there it is – our journey here in the Philippines now has an official end date, a best before date, a do-everything-you-can-by date.

The fact is that we do not have dividends invested in shares…or whatever.  The only disposable income we’ve got is what we had saved for this time here, and that is reaching its end.  But this doesn’t dishearten us in the least; I think I speak for both of us when I say that this has been a great learning experience, and now the big adventure revolves around the lack of knowing.

Initially, at least, we’ll venture back to France.  Of course, a big reason that we’ve done all of this is in a way to gain the experience we hope will compensate for our lack of advanced degrees.  While coming here wasn’t cheap, it was a lot less expensive than putting both of us through graduate school whilst paying the cost of living in Europe.  We’re hoping that one possibility will be that new doors in the world of international development will be open to us.  Of course, who knows?  There may or may not be opportunities like that ahead…or it may just be that something else entirely comes up.

There is this apparent contradiction which is really not contradictory at all, which I’ve learned to articulate if not really comprehend:  I can, in fact, focus on the future while being completely committed to the present.  And the knock-on effect, I’m told, should be that the future is more authentic, meaningful, as-it-should-be if I’m able to do this.  Of course, the same people telling me this will also tell me that there is no future, there is only the present, and so forth.  All very confusing stuff.  While I’m still trying to figure all of that out, I’m trying harder to avoid the big sin:  WORRY.  Because where, really, will that get any of us?  This is something I get 100%.  That’s not to say that I always follow the advice, just that I get it and feel less bewildered by the notion.

All of this is just to say, we’ll be here another 6 months and four days, and then, quién sabe?  We’ll have it all figured out once we’re there, I guess!  In the meantime, we’ll continue to keep you updated on our good days and not-so-good days, our failures and successes, our lessons learned and all the rest.  Stay tuned!

One thought on “In Which They Ponder the Unknown…

  1. Mom says:

    Very well put even though I sense a bit of sadness. Biggest question is how is Earthquake? Will he be making the trip to France? Love you both.

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