It has been so tremendously difficult to write. To find the time. To find the words.
In the Casa every day is an impossible adventure, with very good and also pretty bad things happening all around.
On the very good side, C was able to convince a couple of seriously talented photographers to make the kids part of their portrait project. Basically – and I hope my humble words do their incredible journey justice – they’ve come to appreciate how difficult it is to get portraits of strangers while they travel, so they concocted a plan to bring the necessary equipment to print out the shots they shoot and give a copy to the subject on the spot. The kids thought it was magical and the pictures turned out amazing.
Some other good things: C has started teaching. I finished the foundation for the forms the organization has begun and will (hopefully) continue piloting so we can figure out what works and what doesn’t. We got the money from the insurance for my computer and C’s off for a conference in NY next month so he’ll bring me back a new one and I’ll be able to work a lot more efficiently within the month. And we’ve been able to get our hands on some much needed time away, upon which C will elaborate in his next post.
Some not-so-good things: It is cramped. Some days go okay and we don’t feel like screaming, not even once. Other days – and I think I speak for both of us – we come to the end of the day wondering how on Earth we got through it without screaming. From the time we wake up until just before we go to sleep, the house is buzzing with the energy of now 33 little ones, some tiny and others not really quite so little anymore. There are tears and laughter and shouting and running and learning and grieving…quite simply, it is exhausting. But it is tremendously rewarding, and we know we’re really blessed to be there at the end of the day.
One of the risks of living with so many is germs, and we have our share. An oral viral infection went around and I got my share – a couple of weeks of serious discomfort and fatigue – however the silverware is now boiled for sanitary reasons, so something positive came out of it! The kids are also being treated for the second lice infestation in two months, but that’s very hard to avoid when new kids are coming in all the time, and when our girls have such long, thick hair…
A really important aspect of my role here is to help the organization find funds, and I now know that the urgency behind finding funds for this year lies in some really awful accounting carried out by someone who no longer works with the organization. If I’m being nice, I’ll call it a lack of competence, but I have other words for those ‘screamer’ days. Anyway, there will be more on that in my next post as well.
For now, however, I will go back to being in holiday mode, the sun setting over the ocean’s endless horizon as we wait for a cocktail and think about nothing more important than what we’re going to have for dinner…methinks it’ll be more interesting for C…